Now What?

There is an interesting myth that has penetrated the worldview of Christians. This myth is like most lies in that it is a half truth. For some reason we have gotten it into our minds that salvation is defined by "a personal relationship with Jesus Christ". But this is only half of what it means to be a Christian. It is true that regeneration, or being "born again" as the Bible calls it, is a deeply personal and unique experience, and, as a result, intimacy with the Creator comes naturally. However, according to Scripture, this is not the goal.

Time and time again, the Bible reminds us that our belief in Jesus was not for our self-absorbed, naval gazing selves. There are two sides to this coin we call salvation. John teaches us this reality in a subtle way with the last chapter of the gospel he wrote. He ends the previous chapter by writing, "But these are written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ...and that by believing you may have life in his name." But the story doesn't end there. The next chapter has a vivid and memorable discussion between Peter and Jesus.

The story is set up in this way: Peter, the leader among the disciples (and consequently the one who denied ever knowing Jesus when confronted by a little girl barely old enough to see the "High School Musical" trilogy) wanted to go fishing. He takes six of his buddies and fishes all night and catches nothing. That morning, Jesus appears to his disciples for a third time in John's gospel and makes them breakfast after he bails them out of a fishless fishing trip. He then turns to Peter and deals with him in front of everyone. Jesus asks him three times if he loves him. Each time Jesus does this, Peter tells him that he does, and Jesus tells him each time how to love him: "Feed my lambs", "Take care of my sheep", and "Feed my sheep".

On a side note, it is widely taught that Jesus uses a special word for "love", agape, and Peter uses a lesser synonym phileo. Then on the third time Jesus uses phileo, illustrating Peter's lack of commitment or faith. Among several problems I have with the exegetical steps taken to come to this interpretation (including a poor understanding of the Greek language, the disregard for John's writing style, and sloppy word studies done only using a concordance), does Jesus really seem like the kind of guy who lowers his standards to accommodate some body's lack of faith?

What if Jesus is making the point that if Peter loves him, he needs to do something about it. And that something is to think about and live for others. Jesus wants Peter to love him by serving the needs of others. John is showing us that our "personal relationship with Jesus" is actually inter-personal. If we think about it, the person in the Bible who had the deepest relationship with God was Jesus and he did nothing but serve and think of others. When we look at his life, we should feel ashamed about how we have misrepresented the nature of this sacred relationship. His life contradicts just about all of our popular beliefs. He was not healthy and wealthy, Jesus was hated and homeless. He didn't spend hours in the Christian book store trying to find that book that would help him overcome his "bitterness" or actualize his self-worth. He was betrayed by his friends and the Bible calls him a "man of sorrows". Furthermore, what he tells Peter next is that he too will be murdered by crucifixion. This is not the self-affirming, hugabbly soft life Peter was hoping for. This is not the "victorious Christian living" we've read so much about. Instead, this is hard and selfless. It is putting God and others above your own well being.

This notion is entirely antithetical to everything we would expect out of salvation. But it does answer the question of "Now what?" It's that question you confront yourself with sobering realization and say, "My Christianity is all about myself." Do you love him? Then do something about it! And if you don't know where to begin or what to do, start where Jesus left off, breakfast. Invite someone over and be hospitable. Give someone something you know they need. Think less about your budget or your schedule and do something for someone else. Start little and go big.